My true voice

Dear Mum, Dad, Bro & friends!!

It fascinates me to see how I ran/run after what I am told is right.

I stopped to question this and to listen to my own voice and that’s when i realized what i know to be my voice is also born from ideas/beliefs which are not mine. I realized my true voice cant be a function of my past.

As I questioned and refused to invest more on ideas/beliefs I saw them falling away. This gave me hope, I knew when all acquired layers fall I will meet myself more clear. But as the old layers fell, I had to be cautious of not picking new ones. I did pick few but have dropped much more, hence feeling light.

Today I feel much more free, light and happy listening to the voice, which i cant even claim to be mine. Yet I see how fear creeps in at times in the form of some ideas. They give me a sense of identity and seem to protect this identity which i often mistook to be me.

Now as I see this, I wonder what am I investing so much energy into.
What am I trying to protect?
What am I scared of?
Maybe it’s time to stop all this and just relax into myself.

It reminds me of Arjuna in Kurushetra, with an option to listen to his master or to the world which appeared as voice in his head. Choice btw unpleasant truth and comforting lie.
Well, I should do some justice to my name I feel. Shouldn’t I??

Yes I love you. But I can’t see you as your ideas. I know you are much more beyond that. The only way I see I could truly honour you is by honouring myself, by honouring my voice.

Felt like sharing, don’t know why only reason i could see is, it is meant to happen as it is happening.

With love,
Arjun

Love letter to self

If you were to write a love letter to yourself what will it read?

Here is mine!!

Dearest Arjun,

What can i say to you?
Even this silent, not knowing seems wonderful in your presence, its warm, loving and intimate. I love you, beyond expression, i love you.

I need no words to speak to you, yet using this as an excuse to stay with you completely open and close.

You have seen all of me good, bad, messy, calm and confused yet stood by me throughout. Believed in me, loved me and had no complaints even when i got carried away finding no much time to spend with you. I now know what i missed at those moments yet have no regrets for i know you will always be here for me, with me.

Your love was silent, yet deepest and most intimate. You gave me all the space and never forced any ideas or conditions on me. You taught me to trust and love.

Today when i meet you here, i have immense gratitude towards life. It humbles me with the love it showers on me. Let me give you a big warm hug.

Love,
Arjun

A letter to lover

Dear lover,

I love you.

Yes, this is not something new but cant find more honest words to start with.

I am writing this to let you know how i see this relationship and what it means to me. It may sound little weird but i know you can take it, for you have taken me with all the weirdness.

When i say ‘i love you’ it means i accept you for who you are, without any intention to change any bit of you, yet allowing all the changes to come and go through you without affecting my love for you.

This love has no great promises to make, for it knows only of ‘now’. It knows no boundaries or limitations and it can’t be defined, restricted or controlled, it just flows.

It may sound scary to your mind. But i am speaking the truth and you could smell the beauty of it, if you drop your mind and listen to me. After all what does ‘mind’ know of love.

You may not be the only one i love, and i accept it to be true in your case. How can we not love our parents, siblings, friends and fellow travellers? It wont be true if v try and classify love into romantic love, patriotic love, divine love, etc. for love knows no separation or measure, it just flows.

Speaking about my relation with you, i see you as the one i want to be most related to. So i invite you to be my partner in life, to love, fight, romance, share, mirror, learn, teach, explore, nurture and many more as life unfolds.

I invite you to walk with me and giving you the permission to enter any chapter of my life without knocking the doors. This is something i would want to offer only to the one special one, which might be you if you accept this invitation.

Much love,

Your lover.

Ps: i see this as a love letter but may not be as a romantic letter.. this love does not project any attachments, needs or wants on the lover.. it neither makes any bizzare promise nor does it take the responsibility of flattering the loved..

I believe it shows the freedom, openness and limitlessness of love while it also captures the closeness, secureness and commitment in a relationship.

Letter to dear ones – 2

Dear Ones,

I see you worried, yet i stand beside you with no intention to change anything as i see everything is unfolding perfectly. You may not see this now but i promise you will when you reach HOME, and then you will look back at this with much love and gratitude and realize you were always here for you never left.

This may sound like an excuse from me, to not take responsibility, but once you see you are always taken care of and there is no way you can get lost, for all ways lead to HOME what could responsibility mean?

I will be the first one to reach you when you call out for help and with much joy i would serve you for i love you and know no other away.

I see the divine grace carrying you HOME and i can’t express my joy as i wait here with open hands to hug you like never before. Just trust life and surrender to the flow. Welcome Home!

Much love and hugs
Your Love
Arjun Som

Letter to dear ones – 1

Dear ones,

You need not worry about me, am perfectly fine and taken care of. In fact you need not worry about yourself as well, for nothing can go wrong other than your imagination. Just rest and let life unfold itself and you will realize that even you are taken care of coz all of us are.

I may not fit your imagination or strive hard to fit in it, coz am already happy with who i am. I do respect you but for me respect is not about following you but trusting you will understand me and accepting even if you don’t. Coz you are either way beautiful and dear to me.

Sorry if i hurt you but welcome to reality my dear, we are much more beautiful than what we want us to be.

With much love & hugs!
Your love,
Arjun Som